Indigo Gray

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released March 16, 2016

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An experiment that turned into a musical collaboration via email between two long lost cousins, Paul Costanza and Tom Parisi from Brooklyn, NY.

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Track Name: Do Or Say
It doesn't matter what I do or say
You're gonna get what you want anyway
You're up when I'm down
You're off when I'm on
Why did I have to do it?
I just had to do it.

In my mind it's like a screwed up song
My eyes are everywhere but where they belong
I'm looking and searching for somewhere else
But the clock is always ticking
Now it sounds like digging

4 AM
I'm sneaking in
I make believe I forgot what you told me
Then the fight
But it ain't about wrong or right
I wish I'd known years ago from the start that I'd live this long

Every day there's possibilities
And still I carry you just like a disease
I'm trapped in a corner with my own brush
Why did I have to do it?
I just had to do it.

My ears are ringing while you're chipping stone
I laugh when people cry that they're all alone
My new favorite place now is anywhere else
But the clock is always ticking
Now it sounds like digging

5 o'clock
Don't you know how to knock?
I need a minute to vacuum the vision
Then the fight
You want her out of my life
I can't believe that I can't even have my Miss MPG

It doesn't matter what I do or say
It doesn't matter what I do or say
It doesn't matter what I do or say
It doesn't matter what I do or say
Track Name: Kindergarten Sky
She found me here
Pretending that nowhere was somewhere good
And I even try spin it now
Like it all was a summer dream

Taking into account
Who I was and what I claimed to know
She never understood there was a reason
I wanted a kindergarten sky

Was it worth everything and everyone we ever lost?
Are there ever happy endings?
Does she know she's everything that any man could ever want?
I don't know but I tell you I'm trying.

I slip but I never fall
Those 30 days were like forever
And then I knew what I had was never lost, or found
It never went anywhere

She took me along for the ride
While I stared out the window
Looking in every other car's reflection
Searching for kindergarten skies

Was it worth everything and everyone we ever lost?
Are there ever happy endings?
Does she know she's everything that any man could ever want?
I don't know but I tell you I'm trying.

I slip but I never fall
Those 30 days were like forever
And now I know what I had was never lost, or found
It never went anywhere

Taking into account
What I know and who I claim to be
She'll never understood there was a reason
I wanted a kindergarten sky
Track Name: Can You Feel It
Some other time
I might be swept away
No, I'm not blind
Just don't know what to say

It goes down easily
When I fall out of time

Can you feel it?
I can see all around
Want to be it
Taking a chance on falling down

And so it goes
A schoolboy fantasy
Where no one knows
Unless they talk to me

I shout it all out loud
Tripping myself again

Can you feel it?
I can see all around
Want to be it
Taking a chance on falling down
Track Name: Every Day
Every day I'm upside down
Don't matter in what place
Got all these people coming straight for me
Gotta hold on

And now it seems like it was yesterday
I let go of this thing
Now I'm busy trying to grab whatever's left
Every day

Now she's out there on some trip
The remnants of me docked
If now I told her what she meant to me
She would have me cuffed and locked

I tell you up and down I walk all day
On stares of stranger eyes
I think I've seen her pass a thousand times
There she goes

And all the time you'll find me sitting here
I watch them get up first
Where the hell are all of them all rushing to?
Every day

Sometimes I still dream of her
But never get too close
It's like some cosmic joke's been played on me
But I never get the joke

I'm back here holding on to this idea
That this tinman has a heart
But now I've got no one to point it to
Gotta have her

And over in the corner all hunched up
I'm trying to pull the shade
While she gets further and further away from me
Every day

Still back here holding on to this idea
That this tinman has a heart
But now I've got no one to point it to
Gotta have her

And over in the corner all hunched up
I'm trying to pull the shade
While she gets further and further away from me
Every day
Track Name: Long Long Gone
Here's to old times
And everything you hope to find
I'm caught in the middle
'Cos we're long long gone

Then this was now
Oh I needed you and how
It only hurts a little
'Cos we're long long gone

It was all so long ago it's useless
To try and believe that someone cared

Deep down inside
I know I must have tried
To keep it all together
But we're long long gone

Now I realize
Through ever changing skies
Through all kinds of weather
We're long long gone
Track Name: Free At Last
How come it took you so long?
To realize you could be wrong
It doesn't pay
It doesn't matter anyway

What were you thinking that day?
Still good, but you threw it away
Now it seems you'll never know what might have been

You had my heart
You chose apart
Free at last
and now we're only in the past

Maybe there'll be a next time
Make sure you're never that blind
Just let go
Or else you'll really never know

You had my heart
You chose apart
Free at last
and now we're only in the past

He's gone, goodbye
There's nothing I can do for you
No time to cry
Wake up girl, it's time to turn the page

You had a plan
Just understand
It's only you
There's nothing else for you to do

You had my heart
You chose apart
Free at last
and now we're only in the past
Track Name: Letting Go Letting Go
No, I don't want to know you now
Or how your things worked out
Or who you dream about

All I want is to close my eyes
Not to fantasize
But to realize

I'm letting go "letting go"
I'm keeping it
I'm letting go "letting go"
'Cos everything's mine
It's over "over" I go
I'm keeping it

Walking you home and I carry on
Although my mind is gone
Your laugh goes on and on
You with your fuzzy sense of style
That little crooked smile
It used to make me die...

I'm letting go "letting go"
I'm keeping it
I'm letting go "letting go"
'Cos everything's mine
It's over "over" I go
I'm keeping it

So I sit here while you drink too much
Don't even sneak a touch
Maybe I think too much
Remember when Ol' Petey made you cry?
I was the one you dialed
I came and made you smile

I'm letting go "letting go"
I'm keeping it
I'm letting go "letting go"
'Cos everything's mine
It's over "over" I go
I'm keeping it
Track Name: So Glad
I planned to end up nowhere
Another faceless name in a crowd
Out on my feet going down

I never felt the speedbump
I always knew that I knew it all
I'd listen but I never cared

There is just no time
To get inside me
Now I'm not so fine at all

So glad I found you here - I never
knew this was now so near
I dreamed once that you could be - and now I'm
So glad I found you here

I never saw the speedbumps
I just got swept away with the crowd
It happened but I never cared

Now there's just no time
To get inside me
Now I'm not so fine at all

So glad I found you here - I never
knew this was now so near
I dreamed once that you could be - and now I'm
So glad I found you here
Track Name: Southern Girl
If I had my say
I'd find a place
And run away
to live with a southern girl
She'd be everything

I'd close my eyes
and cross the sky
And be by her side
Unless it's too late
Did her morning come?

I will try to be
whatever she wants
and when she opens up her eyes
I'll be the one who says
good morning love

Is it still real
Am I ideal
The things in the way
Will still weigh us down
Is it over now?

What did she start
she stole my heart
She made it so real
and when I'm alone
I still feel her here

I can't imagine anyone
who turned my whole world upside down
and now I feel like it's
our morning love

I'm with her
Though she hardly understands a word I'm saying
She's so quiet now I'll chase her ghosts away

When she goes dark
My mind goes far
Imagining things
That blow me away
does she remember me?

Is it not real
It's all I feel
Is it just a dream
to live with with a southern girl
will she walk away
Track Name: Jenna
Long on my mind
But I've got so much to do now and so little time
I wasn't looking now but I can't shake it
So maybe I was yeah

You're making me wish that I was and wish that I wasn't
You're really making it hard
We don't have the time or the place just the notion
I'll try and be there

Jenna Jenna just chased my blues away, yeah
Jenna Jenna just chased my blues away, yeah

Let's start from top - I'm looking for cold smack devotion
Baby you get what you give
I'm not gonna chase-you-through-a-maze of what-have-yous
I don't even know yeah


I'm trying to live like I'm starting all over
Erasing the bars and the scars, and the evils inside me
We're gonna dance to the corners
And turn out the lights there

It starts with a quiet call
a favor from Lexington Steve and then hot back and forth
You don't know me at all
But now ev-er-y-thing that you say just takes me away


I'm not gonna chase you through a maze of what-ever-happened
So little matters at all
Whatever he did to the girl there inside you
I'll blow it away
Track Name: Trapped
Wasn't she the one who'd never lie to me?
Was it me who had her heart?
Now I fill the time
Once spent with her, saying goodbye to me
Like a bird that that just falls from the sky
We're gone

Looking in her eyes I thought I saw it all
How it was supposed to be
Then I watched the color
of those eyes just go from green to gone
How I could let this all happen to me
we'll see

Suddenly the shades will fall
And she'll be trapped in the room where I found her
I'd love to tell you I'll be gone
But I'm still trapped in a world all around her

How a heart can change I'll never understand
All at once a world goes dark
Like trying to find an
algebraic answer for a broken heart
Some day she will come looking for me
Here I'll be

Someday her sky will fall
In shades of indigo gray all around her
I wish to hell I'd be long gone
As I revolve like the moon all around her
Track Name: Stephanie Told Me
Head over heels I was
Or I thought I was
Or maybe just wished I was
Easy to close my eyes and pretend
We had it all and then some
And there was your best friend
Just a girl who seemed to want to know everything
But there was a reason she was so close to you
And even closer to me, yeah

Stephanie told me where you spent the night
She said, she said she told you not to go
But she just had to let me know

Suppose it was for the good
To make us clear the air
To lay it out to see
You needed space you said
You figured this all out after you talked to Stephanie

Stephanie told me she knew I'd be alright
She said, she said I'd find someone instead
Then she got trapped in my head

While she was sitting there talking
I got totally hypnotized
I wanted to, oh I wanted to!

Stephanie told me that she could spend the night
We talked about the things that you have done
And how you couldn't be "the one."

While she watched the sun come up
I just stared in surprise at her electric eyes.

Stephanie told me she knew you'd be alright
She said, you said you'd find someone instead
While she stayed here in my bed
Track Name: When You Are Mine
There at the window you'll wait
when I'm coming home
You'll fill my thoughts every day
It's all in the design
When you are mine

I'll always know where you are
And I'll never wonder if he
hurt you somehow and it's wrong
that I'm sitting here blind
When you are mine

When you are here we'll make this a breeze
And it will all be clear what we need
To do

I'll be the knight every day
in your fairy tale
No one will ever come close
It will all be sublime
When you are mine

Never will you have to wait
too hear me tell you that I
Love you more and more every day
You won't need any signs
When you are mine

When you are here we'll make this a dream
And it will all be clear what we need
To do

Never will you understand
How it makes me feel when you
Reach in the dark for my hand
and you press against me and you
Tell me that I'll be the one
You'll be running to when the
Smoke in our lives is all gone
No more waiting in line
When you are mine